zhuan shu tian shi

i guess its all over...
such a short span ...
it hurts a bit tho and am still confused.
Me and huiting came out with a ' new' and 'old' theory.
i guess....the 'old ' will always be left behind when the 'new' ones came...
sad...
i think female are very loyal species..
unlike the opposite.
i think thats it.

But ive also decided to treasure the time spent together and like ive said it many many times...
i thank you again for giving me hope ( and then crashing it down?)
Guess, it has always been like this...jinx or wad i dunno..
there are always better new ones yah...
infatuation...
flows like water..
a gust of wind..
a moment of pleasure..
than things turn dark and u suffocate..
tried hard to understand what u went thru before..
but it has gone too fast for u to even analyse what just happen..

*delete*

i gotta move on..
going after memories...lossing your grip on reality..
tahts dangerous...
i know...

*deleted*

never tot that it will AGAIN ended like this..
'new' ones....

* its over...*
ive decided........................

:)

Its 9:12 am...just gotten back my math result and i failed!
Damn it...it is not as if am gonna pass it anyway but it irritates me early in the morning to see a foul result.
shit la....
THIS IS PROBABLY NOT THE WORSE YET!
am prepared tO FAIL gp....

there's this big huuuUuuu---HaAaaaA... about those getting A, D, E grades but were rejected by sevveral universities...
Getting a triple C used to be a criteria...but now..u gotta at least have an A and other grades not lower than a c....
at this juncture...., i don know whther i can do it?..getting a min pass is damn difficult already and u expect an A ?..hello?...
tough....
the 'dragon babies' will be fighting for a place in NUS next year...and thats not fair cuz they dun sit for the new syllabus...!
what will i do if i cant go uni?
Mypapa told me to go malaysia uni...foreign universities if i cant make it in sinagpore>..
i dunno...
never say die..( am already dead!)

this is super demoralising la...
ive tried...
and am tired...
am tired to even think..
even if u put in effort..those ppl who doesnt, still get better grades cuz they're smart...
ya right..they're smart...
teachers keep emphasising on 'hardwork...'...
that is just total bullshit...
be here....and u got ta witness it first hand...
hardwork doesnt work.., u gotta be smart...
liek freaking smart during exam..study smart...smart ass....smarties...haha...
SMART!

guess, am just not...that makes it difficult...
cuz ive tried....

what shd i do?..
i cant give up yet! i gotta werk hard...
gotta werk super hard....


am just tired








ps: ive tried...
sorry.. :(

Ive been trying to get a new skin...a new shoutout box ......
i just cant upload it...
man , have to stick to this bleak blogskin...~~

Mid year's over!! Hooray!!!Hooray!!
Nothing to rejoice abt actually...realle....it was tough...
sitting there for a full 3 hour paper until my butt burn ..' sit so long...also dunno whether can pass'......
ha!!
3 hrs ...seems long ryte but the real thing is i dun even have time to think and plan....when u got the qns..u just do...JUST DO IT! tough.. = . =

But i cant do anything now..ive taken it...
so...let it be....
if it is meant to be..it is then....

eh, wassup with my slacking attitude nowadays?
i dunnooooo....
ive been kinda engrossed with drawing and stuff..it amkes me happy...
my mother scolded me cause i forgot to clean the house and such..i was accused and criticise almost abt everything...
she doesnt know the kind of shit am facingwith my studies and the fact that maybe i shouldnt be here in college at all...i would be happy designing and drawing manga or wadeva...
haiz.....
sad life...
i want As to be over and done with!
like wad Mr leow or is it liao said ' everyhtingis on ur studies now...'..
gotta perserver for 5 months and thats it!1
free from everything! ::)