Its 9:12 am...just gotten back my math result and i failed!
Damn it...it is not as if am gonna pass it anyway but it irritates me early in the morning to see a foul result.
shit la....
THIS IS PROBABLY NOT THE WORSE YET!
am prepared tO FAIL gp....

there's this big huuuUuuu---HaAaaaA... about those getting A, D, E grades but were rejected by sevveral universities...
Getting a triple C used to be a criteria...but now..u gotta at least have an A and other grades not lower than a c....
at this juncture...., i don know whther i can do it?..getting a min pass is damn difficult already and u expect an A ?..hello?...
tough....
the 'dragon babies' will be fighting for a place in NUS next year...and thats not fair cuz they dun sit for the new syllabus...!
what will i do if i cant go uni?
Mypapa told me to go malaysia uni...foreign universities if i cant make it in sinagpore>..
i dunno...
never say die..( am already dead!)

this is super demoralising la...
ive tried...
and am tired...
am tired to even think..
even if u put in effort..those ppl who doesnt, still get better grades cuz they're smart...
ya right..they're smart...
teachers keep emphasising on 'hardwork...'...
that is just total bullshit...
be here....and u got ta witness it first hand...
hardwork doesnt work.., u gotta be smart...
liek freaking smart during exam..study smart...smart ass....smarties...haha...
SMART!

guess, am just not...that makes it difficult...
cuz ive tried....

what shd i do?..
i cant give up yet! i gotta werk hard...
gotta werk super hard....


am just tired








ps: ive tried...
sorry.. :(