A level's in 90 days! ARGHHHH!!
pRELIMS IN 3 weeks... oh my GOD!
HELP!!

HAVE BEEN mugging... not art full speed yet but ya, did study here and there...
oh btw, mrs tan wants the choir seniors to sing during teachers day... not choir song la,...any pop song....
have been asking around...everyone dun wan...hm, should i try?
scared la but its once in a lifetime opportunity!
i almost join talentime but my parents dun allow....it seemms like god is helping me again..so how?

At last...mid year results!!

I got a D for geog...and E for econs........and S for history!!
History le! thats my favourite subject and i totally screw it like crazie! Y?
hate it man...
feel so discourage...
went for Mr liao motivationa talk... get motivated at first..than it crashed down again...
so, i'll be studying with my hist 'team' ..ernest, jishen and zhouren. Funny combination..
haiz.
i used to depend a lot on history during my sec school years..and now am failing like crazye. Source based questions used to be 'so shiok' to do...now that the main reason y i flunk it badly.
gotta revise on the way i studied for history...
Memorizing facts is not enough..i need to know how to argue well....
haiz.
Thats my problem?! i have all the facts in the world right here and i can produce 3-4 page essays but its all full of shit! My argument suck...i get confused when doing my source based!
haiz... ive lost it man....
lost it...

gotta pick myself up again....
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watch 200 pounds beauty...damn sad lah the song.. byul- kim ah joong
the lyrics is damn nice...
it goes something likfe i still continue to smile in from of my love that i wont get...
tho the time we spent together was short.... i would treasure it deep inside blablabla...'
i forgot!

haha. nevermind lah!
rest my case.
studies...ure my main priority.
am gonna do it!
jiayou!!!!

zhuan shu tian shi

i guess its all over...
such a short span ...
it hurts a bit tho and am still confused.
Me and huiting came out with a ' new' and 'old' theory.
i guess....the 'old ' will always be left behind when the 'new' ones came...
sad...
i think female are very loyal species..
unlike the opposite.
i think thats it.

But ive also decided to treasure the time spent together and like ive said it many many times...
i thank you again for giving me hope ( and then crashing it down?)
Guess, it has always been like this...jinx or wad i dunno..
there are always better new ones yah...
infatuation...
flows like water..
a gust of wind..
a moment of pleasure..
than things turn dark and u suffocate..
tried hard to understand what u went thru before..
but it has gone too fast for u to even analyse what just happen..

*delete*

i gotta move on..
going after memories...lossing your grip on reality..
tahts dangerous...
i know...

*deleted*

never tot that it will AGAIN ended like this..
'new' ones....

* its over...*
ive decided........................

:)

Its 9:12 am...just gotten back my math result and i failed!
Damn it...it is not as if am gonna pass it anyway but it irritates me early in the morning to see a foul result.
shit la....
THIS IS PROBABLY NOT THE WORSE YET!
am prepared tO FAIL gp....

there's this big huuuUuuu---HaAaaaA... about those getting A, D, E grades but were rejected by sevveral universities...
Getting a triple C used to be a criteria...but now..u gotta at least have an A and other grades not lower than a c....
at this juncture...., i don know whther i can do it?..getting a min pass is damn difficult already and u expect an A ?..hello?...
tough....
the 'dragon babies' will be fighting for a place in NUS next year...and thats not fair cuz they dun sit for the new syllabus...!
what will i do if i cant go uni?
Mypapa told me to go malaysia uni...foreign universities if i cant make it in sinagpore>..
i dunno...
never say die..( am already dead!)

this is super demoralising la...
ive tried...
and am tired...
am tired to even think..
even if u put in effort..those ppl who doesnt, still get better grades cuz they're smart...
ya right..they're smart...
teachers keep emphasising on 'hardwork...'...
that is just total bullshit...
be here....and u got ta witness it first hand...
hardwork doesnt work.., u gotta be smart...
liek freaking smart during exam..study smart...smart ass....smarties...haha...
SMART!

guess, am just not...that makes it difficult...
cuz ive tried....

what shd i do?..
i cant give up yet! i gotta werk hard...
gotta werk super hard....


am just tired








ps: ive tried...
sorry.. :(

Ive been trying to get a new skin...a new shoutout box ......
i just cant upload it...
man , have to stick to this bleak blogskin...~~

Mid year's over!! Hooray!!!Hooray!!
Nothing to rejoice abt actually...realle....it was tough...
sitting there for a full 3 hour paper until my butt burn ..' sit so long...also dunno whether can pass'......
ha!!
3 hrs ...seems long ryte but the real thing is i dun even have time to think and plan....when u got the qns..u just do...JUST DO IT! tough.. = . =

But i cant do anything now..ive taken it...
so...let it be....
if it is meant to be..it is then....

eh, wassup with my slacking attitude nowadays?
i dunnooooo....
ive been kinda engrossed with drawing and stuff..it amkes me happy...
my mother scolded me cause i forgot to clean the house and such..i was accused and criticise almost abt everything...
she doesnt know the kind of shit am facingwith my studies and the fact that maybe i shouldnt be here in college at all...i would be happy designing and drawing manga or wadeva...
haiz.....
sad life...
i want As to be over and done with!
like wad Mr leow or is it liao said ' everyhtingis on ur studies now...'..
gotta perserver for 5 months and thats it!1
free from everything! ::)

hehey...yesterday was the PASSING OUT day....hm, not officially yet..it will be ANNOUNCE during the bbq..but its over..the experience to be a president was really something ..i'll never trade for anything else it was an opportunityand i would like to thank my people for believing and supporrting me...guess, everything that ive always wanted to say have already been said...almost actually...
cause words alone could not really describe the emotion that is running thru yesterday.
Thanks to my VPS as well...for being there always...werking with me...
im glad tht i have sucessfully inspired many to be the president / v president....
it was not easy...
i have to go thru lots of challenges and stuff..but i keep on smiling....

it was really touching to hear how much ive changed ppl perception about certain things ...idolise as well...

being a president is not all about popularity and stuff...
a lot more i guess...
but i believe in our juniors...
:)
:)

its time for u to held your head high and create your own history alright!!

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as for you:
thanks... shock to hear those words from you...
really...ure caring at the same time i got my own doubt cuz ive been played... played badly..:(
yup! ............................:)


love ya all...my committee , the seniors...my sisters....!!
YOU are all so important to me!
i'll miss this...
ive never felt so attached before...it is such a comfortable place to be with,...
sense of belonging...
for me.....
tho we got bronze for syf,.... i felt like all of us have already won big time!
:)

wa lao! stupid mouth!!
i din noe they were there...* hopefully he's listening to his mp3*
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At this junture, i feel so confused lah.
one moment i feel so glad.... and than later my heart ache...and then later..i dun feel a thing...
weird?!
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if this is not meant to be than GO AWAY la!..dun make me happy and then sad and then confused..
my mid year is coming during the holidays and i cant afford to feel this way..
like HELLO??
i gotta stay focus and stuff yah....
maybe i should thank god for these but on the other hand...
i dun like this feeling...
bump into aziz and he told me ' its better to be dumb than be a fool all your life'
i think thts true...
i just need to hear those words....

but all gals have their ego and stuff and i gotta keep my kewl...
dun wanna seem to despo at the same time, show interests.
weird?
you noe....somehow in my heart, i feel that tis is not true...
hey...been broken and stitched again and again..than sum soul pop inand give ya hope...be in my shoes.....and try to understand...
am scared.....

like reallie scared.....
if i fall this time, i will fall badly...
if this doesnt work..i'll turn ...bad.....
if this is my destiny .....i'
ll accept it......

:)

passing out this week kinda sad lah.
been with the choir for years..
prepared my speech already.,..
so sad...am gonna cry....